in this lifetime i have had my good days and bad days
but never in my life have a had a week of pure realisation, im quickly learning i cannot trust anyone and there is not 1 person who is there for me 24/7
i dont not have someone in my life who i could safely say would drop everything in the middle of the night to come be by my side
ive always been the 3rd wheel, always part of a threesome that when people decide to pair off im left there standing by myself.
why me, what lesson do i have to learn from this, am i such a terrible person that this shit keeps happening too.
i just dont understand anymore, am i meant to learn to stand for myself and always defend myself, well if thats it youve made your point but youve also made me miserable
next week am i too face the music of depression and wanting to give in, things that make me feel better will be taken away, ill fight for it but its likely nothing will come of it.
if anything is too make me feel better right noww it is to win lotto and take me to europe where i can purify my mind of all this shit
good day
xx
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